reflection

Sai Ram Teacher

Thanks for the reassuring words. i've been reflecting and retrospecting over my experiences (to which more of the same has been added). my life is a serious of experiences which can only be explained by karma or misfortune. i often wonder why the yearning for intimacy is so strong inside. to the extent that my judgement becomes very clouded. i think its my destiny to be alone. which is ironic for someone whose only goal is to find someone. over the years i've substituted sex for intimacy which has now become an addiction. ironically it is the only remedy that provides some relief. which is not a good thing. i think tho, in spite of my experiences, i will always aspire to that relationship. i think that kind of love between two people is so wonderful. its a love between peers who have no obligation to love but for some reason connect deeply with each other. perhaps i'm too much of a romantic i've recently found a song by Tyagaraja "Endaro Mahanubhavalu" which i really like. its keeping me company these days

Sai Ram