the problem with sex

The problem with sex is memory. when i have sex, the memory remains so clear in my mind, and is quite easy to recreate and even modify to exclude anything that was not satisfactory. most of you would say great ... you can have sex and recreate it at home .... and enjoy the event over and over again. actually i do this several times, imagining the pillow is the partner and then recreating the event. it is quite nice but unfoturnately there are many problems with this. one is that i tend to recreate it everywhere i go, even at work. this makes me very horny indeed. it also increases my drive to such an extent that when i next have sex, i cum out in an explosion. i tend to do things that maybe i should not and then regret later. secondly the real thing can never be as good as the memory, since it is modified to make it perfect. thirdly the memory (especially the recreation) gives you the impression that it is real, when in fact it is not. again reality can never compare.

i often wonder with my sex drive whether i can be monogomous. it is amazingly strong in me. and with this ability to recreate it, it is even stronger. even as i write this at work, my undies are soaked with precum.

i would like to have sex and then erase it from my mind. if only this was possible